How do people do it? How do you stay home with your children and survive on one income? I want to stay at home with Madeline but it is getting harder and harder. I don't want her being cared for by a substitute me at a day care center that smells of hand sanitizer and spit up.
We don't have expensive stuff. The only clothes I have bought for myself in the last year are all from Target and were on sale or clearance. Madeline's wardrobe is almost entirely hand me downs at this point. (Thanks to her very stylish and generous cousins Mia and Maz.) Our only luxuries are cable TV and our cell phones. Kevin and I have been out to dinner once in the last 5 months and we went to Jimmy Johns. I mean really, that isn't much of an extravagance.
It breaks my heart to think about going back to work full time. But I don't feel like I am left with many choices. I have sent out a few resumes and had one interview and to be honest I am sort of glad I haven't heard back from most of them. I'm torn of course. On the one hand I want to know I am good enough to be hired by these employers. On the other hand I don't want to face the reality of going back to a 5+ day a week job.
I mentioned a few posts ago that I have been working for the local PBS station doing some part time work. Unfortunately this work is only during their quarterly pledge drives so after this weekend I will be unemployed again. (That is until September if I choose to do it again.) Ideally I would find more part time work. Either a couple of days a week or nights and weekends, but I haven't had much luck locating this in my field. (If you are a hiring manager who just stumbled upon my blog I have a masters in Communication and have experience in special events planning, children's program development and marketing. Hire me.)
If you are a stay at home mom out there please tell me how you do it! Kevin and I both want to have more children but how do you make ends meet? I know we can't continue on this financial path forever. What about our next home? Pre-School? Sports fees? A must have Christmas gift? First bikes? Prom dresses? College tuition? Not to mention our retirement?!?!?! I wish I could figure all this out so that I could have what I wanted, a happy and financially stable family. It's not that I don't want to work, it is that I don't want my children to be primarily cared for by someone else.
I guess you could say I am a little stressed out. HELP!